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|Wednesday, April 12th, 2006|
|Has anyone else seen?
I was just wondering has anyone else seen the Valtrex commercial? Everyone is all happy about taking this pill and reducing their chances of spearding Herpes??
I've seen it a few times but today was the first time I actually saw the the 'fine print'.
It said it only reduces the chances in heterosexual couples....
Maybe I'm just being slow...but damn..how do you react to something like that? I'm not 'angry' just speechless I guess...
Or maybe I'm over reacting...
|Saturday, March 18th, 2006|
|why do i love you...
iv been living the event over and over again in my head....though its been nine months since it happened i still feel the hurt like it was yesterday...hell like it was just 5 minutes ago....i would give my arm to have the type of love me and you had again.....if not with you then with my current love...it seems out of reach at this point....the though of caring for someone as much and as deep as i cared for you seems impossible...yet i still yearn for it.....i still need it....sometimes it feels like thats why im still here....to find that love again...to feel that love again....but sometimes it feels like loosing that love is going to be the death of me....i convinced myself for a while i was over you...over our love...over everything....i lied to myself....forced myself to move on when i was ready....and what did that get me?....nothing...nothing but a trail of empty relationships and an endless road pit of confusion....i dont think i ever regretted anything more then falling for you...i wish i hadnt stepped out to the porch that night, or went into the basement...or even went to that party.....maybe then i wouldnt be so hurt....
|Sunday, March 12th, 2006|
|Update, with the quickness.
Ok, just a quick update.
Me and My wifey, Sharai, have been together for almsot 5 months now. Shes still not allowed to use her phone or the internet. So we haven't talked in a while. It sucks. But its all good. So yeah. I gotta go. I'll update again some other time journal. Byebyez.
|Monday, October 10th, 2005|
Ok i figured, since a lot of my friends are all happy in the land of love because they've found almost exactly what they've been looking for, i'll make a list of what i want and what i dont want in a person. If im feeling up to it then i'll break it down to the types of relationships and everything.
Ok so my first list.
someone who isnt afraid to be affectionate (ie: hold hands, celebrate anniversaries, buy lil gifts for each other, go on dates...etc...)
someone who isnt a stranger to using the phone...or hanging out...doesnt have to be on a regular...but some type of something....that we'll be happy with.
Ok looks arent to important but at least take care of yourself, dont look a hott mess. I mean just carry yourself well. You dont have to wear designer clothes, shit my designer clothes are from jcpenny and macys.
Try to be active, do some sports or some sort of clubs for your school. Just something proactive, im extremely involved in school sports and such...i like making my time useful...
Be open minded!! Dont think because its not your way its wrong. Don think because its against the majority its wrong. Cuz as the poster on my teachers walls have read for the passed 5 years "What is popular is not always right, and what is right is not always popular" so think before you speak/act/comit/and do....the world would be much better this way.
MOST IMPORTANTLY, SOMEONE WHO CAN COMMUNICATE WITH ME ON AN INTELLECTUAL LEVEL. SOMEONE WHO WILL DISCUSS THINGS LIKE POLITICS, SLAVERY, HUMAN RIGHTS, ABORTION, OR ANYTHING ELSE THAT PLAGUES THE NEWS OF THE MODERN WORLD. IF I CANT TALK TO A PERSON, ITS EXTREMELY DIFFICULT FOR ME TO WANT TO STAY WITH THEM....
What i dont want:
Someone who isnt affectionate in any way shape or form. Meaning i cant count on you to hold my hand, to cuddle, to joke around with, to get little things for... your just frigid basically...
Someone who cant tell me there honest opinions on anything. Whether they think im acctractive, smart, witty, or if they think my school sucks, my friends suck, if i act like a quote on quote "white girl"..
Someone who cant have a simple how was your day, convosation with me..
If we were to be in an open relationship, dont take it to your advantage. Dont go around fuckin and hoein around because you can. Have some sort of control over yourself, be respectable.
Dont let me find out about your business, dont put yourself out there like that. If your gunna do your dirt, PLEASE think i might find out......
PROTECTION. PROTECTION PROTECTION. If your gunna be puttin yourself out there PROTECT yourself...... if anything were to happen...i dont want to get anything....
Be faithful....if i have choosen to end my freedom and be with you exclusivly....be faithful...because i will be....
Ok so hopefully this will help,
|Monday, September 26th, 2005|
|M Birthday Wish list.
Ok ya'll..i know my b-day is 2 months 1 week and 5 days from today but i gotta let ya'll know what i want for my b-day, which is december 9th for those of you who didnt know.
Its not much really,
just a teddy bear and a doodle bear.
A regular teddy, nothing to expensive shit walmart has them for .88 cents...i would go and buy one but its even more special to me if someone else got me one, i have three wittle bears that i share my bed with.
And a doodle bear, we had these back in the day. There the bears that come with a special marker so you can write on them and ish. They had those weird ass bleached spotted jeans with faded spots and dark spots. Well they have those back and i would love to have one!!! But i would love for you too sign it before you give it to me!! ok??
Well thank you all, if you get me this. ANd if your bday is coming up let me know what you want and i got you...as long as i can afford it!!!
|Wednesday, September 21st, 2005|
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Ok i seriously dont understand why i like people who consider themselves pimps/playa's or shit like that. I mean damni should know better......if anyone should i should know better. I know how they think, shit i used to pimp all the time. But i grew up. Im up front with shit people know i have a wife and if i talk to someone that may be all it amounts too..unless your a select 2.. haha...well anyway....back to what i was sayin.
I should know better then to try and be involved with someone who is like what im talkin about....damn i make some stuid decisions sometimes....DAMN!!!! but yeah i guess thats all i can say without really giving away who i was talkin about..so..yeah ill ttyl journal byebyez.
|Saturday, September 17th, 2005|
|Cheap feels, fun thrills and stuff in between.
Today, what happened????Umm actually got to school early but i had to help nay with something so i didnt get to do what i wanted.
Umm lets see geometry was fun, creative writing was fun. I feel asleep a few times. Haha. Umm honors algebra two had a quiz. I think i did ok on it. But iono. French was ok. Me and arlette were talking. LOL
Lunch was umm..something else. Haha damn cheap feels!!!!! Damn them to hell. English was fun. Damn i gotta read to kill a mockingbird.
Umm yeah...again damn cheap feels. Umm biology was ok, had a quiz. Damnit!!!! And gym was ok, i think im becoming the teachers pet. Haha fine with me, i need a nice class. So yeah i guess thats about it. Ill ttyl journal byebyez.
|Tuesday, September 13th, 2005|
|Stupid, Ironic and just plain crazy.
Ok so today i came to the schocking revolation that this girl my ex cheated on me with is in my school!!!! Not only that, shes in my gym class. And on top of that i see her everyday, after every period in the halls!!!!This is one of the chickens(im not gunna call females bitches anymore..unless they deserve it) thats suppose to jump me and she dont even realize who i am! I know damn well i aint sayin nothing because im scranny and she aint.......so...yeah.....
Umm then i found out my friend nikki is tryin to get this girl to ask me to go to homecoming with her. LMAO damn, that was just funny as hell. I was thinkin about who i wanted to go with and how id be able to get them there but i dont know. I wanna go with my wife but my mom will definetly have a problem with that, so iono.....
Umm, haha gym was so fuckin stupid. I swear someone gave me some riddlin or something. I was saying stupid ish in gym about race and how i was mexican and those 8 year olds in china that had that kid.......ugh....lol..made a new "friend" this kid jeff, haha he likes my hand movements.(im a true hispanic i have to use my hands when i speak...its a habit). Haha umm. I guess thats about it. Ill ttyl journal byebyez. Current Mood: energetic
|Wednesday, September 7th, 2005|
|First day of school.
The first day of school.
My first day was horrible, i got my period so i had cramps, my locker still wont open! I accidentally went to my locker during 5th period because i thought it was 6th, i have lunch 6th. So that made me late for french which i wont be able to switch out of it and into spanish two because were not aloud to switch classes unless were doing really bad in it. I was also late for english because i went to bilogoy, i always forget i have english after lunch. Even if im thinkin of my scheduale i never remeber english....
I have text books that litterally weigh 16.5lbs all together. And i have to carry them around because my locker wont open. GOD DAMNIT!!!!!!
Then i couldnt find my money for lunch, i wont be able to switch out of french into spanish two because were not aloud to switch classes unless were doing really bad in it. Ummm what else?
Oh yeah my bag i was using the strap broke and something spilled in it......and it took me 10 minutes to find my bus. I had to hold the three books, (gettin a 4th monday) my bag, my pocketbook cuz that had my cell and stuff in it(gets taken away if its in my pocket or anything) and my money...if i had any.... so yeah i just didnt have all that great of a day.... but ill ttyl journal. byebyez.
Thanks baby for askin me how my day was, even though it sucked lol. Current Mood: crappy
|Wednesday, August 24th, 2005|
|Why black females have bigger butts.
Why black females have bigger butts.
OK BEFORE YOU READ THIS, KNOW THAT MORE THEN LIKELY ITS GOING TO BE FULL OF RACIAL STEREOTYPES AND THE IGNORANCE THAT PLAGUES AMERICA TO THIS DAY. (That being said, have fun and enjoy my iditotic views on why black females and hispanic females have bigger ass' then our caucasian counter parts and no im not blaming mcdonalds for the sudden increase in white women with big butts.) (Also know that is is strictly opinion and probably not fact.lmao yes i did just say that.)
Ok, in my almost 15 complete years of living i have noticed that black and hispanic females have bigger, more rounder ass' then those of the white females. And i have come to one conclusion......stress. There is a commercial on television for cortisal and stress and how stress increases belly fat. But what they dont say, although they show in there body graph, is that stress also increases ass fat.
Stress is something most black and hispanic females deal with on a daily basis. Blacks because we're dying from aids/hiv faster then anyone else on the planet. We meaning both hispanics and blacks (heres the nonesense i warned you about) deal with being raped, having our race of men put in jail, or our brothers cheating.
Now yes a white female would probably go through the same issues but it seems as though if they are then its not as stressful.
LMAO ok im gunna cut it short there, this is ridicuous if you have read this thats just a damn shame you were that bored. LOL nah jp, its a damn shame that i actually wrote it but oh well. So what are you opinions on this issue???
|Sunday, August 21st, 2005|
|Your Ideal Relationship is Polyamory|
You want to have your cake... and everyone else's.
Which isn't a bad thing, if everyone else gets to eat too!
You're too much of a free spirit to be tied down by a traditional relationship.
You think relationships should be open and free, with few restrictions.
|More quiz results.
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything!
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.
|Tuesday, July 12th, 2005|
Ahhh three more days till i leave. Well really two more depends on how you look at it. So hmmm, going to Fun Time America tomarrow with nana and nikki hehe im happy. I get to have fun before i leave. And i got a new phone today. Im soooooooo f-in happy. So yeah just felt like sharing. So ill ttyl journal byebyez.
|Monday, July 11th, 2005|
|Just an update.
Alright journal dont know how much im actually gunna be able to right. But yeah. OK so im leaving friday going to california for vacation and to for my brothers wedding. Yay im going to be a brides maid. Go me!! LOL. So my neice was suppose to leave yesterday but that didnt happen. Its all good, shes good for the most part just throws crazy ass temper tantrums. But then again what 3 year old doesnt.
Not sure if i posted my scores for the 8th grade states test a.k.a the G.E.P.A for us jersey folk. But in order to get advanced proficienty (damn i cant spell) or above average you need to get abore 250. My scores were this:
Language arts: 244
Haha math is suppose to be my lowest piont but oh well. Im proud of myself. Now i get to take either algebra 2 or geometry. Actually freshman year im going to be taking both. And hopefully i did well on the spanish test so that i can take spanish honors. Hahahahahahhaha!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im gunna be taking hard ass classes, plus science im going to be in lab instead of intro to lab which most freshman take. So im proud of myself and my academic acheivements. Only thing is ppl are going to be holding me to my sisters standards which sucks because she was in so many damn clubs and had good grades, was class president and prom queen. She just didnt do any sports.
OK well i guess ill go now. Ill ttyl journal byebyez.
|Wednesday, June 29th, 2005|
|Hehe quiz results are fun
Current Mood: curious
Your Slanguage Profile
|Prison Slang: 50%|
|Aussie Slang: 25%|
|British Slang: 25%|
|New England Slang: 25%|
|Canadian Slang: 0%|
|Southern Slang: 0%|
|Victorian Slang: 0%|
|Friday, May 27th, 2005|
|Just something new.
Ok so right now im souped as hell. One because the 4400 is coming back june 5th at 9. And two because i get to see my gf tomarow and hang out with her and her fam all day. Hehe, i got her a beany baby. Its soo damn cute. Its her favorite color and animal. So yay and i got her this lil keychain with her name on it. haha thanks Nay for showing me them. I wanna go back and get myself a beany baby those things are sooo cute. I always wondered why ppl liked them soo bitch.
So well anyway, danielle got outta school suspension (oss) which is just like yes for me because i dont have to see her untilll tuesday. Then wednesday shes in my gym class but w/e its only for 70 mins. OMGOSH were graduting on the 20th im soo happy. Haha.
Umm and i also found out that im either 5 or 6 in my 8th grade class. So its all good. not what i wanted (i wanted at least 3rd but its ok). So yeah i guess ill ttyl byebyez.
|Monday, May 2nd, 2005|
|Boring azz monday
Ok today was boring as hell. Umm, algebra was boring, history was ok, lunch was ok. Language we had to do a target teach test. Ugh those suck ass. Its four in one. Umm tv was extra boring, and music was ok. We had a meeting about our trip on thursday and what to wear what not to wear, what to bring blah blah blah. Umm i got picked up 10mins early to go to the orthodontist. They still cant do anythng because my teeth are being pulled but yeah. Umm i got a dress, shoes and a purse for the dinner cruise were going on. Haha. Its a creme color dress. Umm so yeah today i started packing for the trip i just need to put my deoderant, a shower cap and towel in the bag and ill be all good. So hmm, oh yeah nay wear your "Your Icky" shirt on thursday and ill wear my happy bunny shirt. LOL we'll match.
So yeah hmm, im tired as a bitch. Damn i just wanna go to sleep but my babys suppose to call me so i cant really go to sleep other wise ill fall asleep on the phone n thats not cool. Umm lol yay she's suppose to come over on saterday night. Yay. LOL cant wait. So hmm i guess thats about it. Ill ttyl journal byebyez. Current Mood: tired
|Tuesday, April 12th, 2005|
|Im not that cocky.
Today was boring as hell. LOL umm we got to pick who we wanted to room with for the trip next month. I picked nay and danielle. But kristen told me that it was gunna be me her and veronica. So i was like umm. OK w/e thats messed up. Because i know for sure that veronica would have put either sam gussie and sickles and maybe courtney. So yeah and i think kristen put me but im not sure. And i know nay put me. But w/e its red bank couldnt really be all that suprised. LOL nah let me stop. Oh yeah for track, discus, i threw 90 feet. I was sooo souped. Haha thats 30 feet more then last year!!! Haha well i guess thats about it. Ill ttyl journal. Oh yeah thats twice as much as i threw when i first started throwing. Hehe. Byebyez. Current Mood: amused
|Saturday, April 9th, 2005|
Ok well went to NY today. Had fun, Deyana finally came. LOL shes soo damn crazy. So me her Danielle and Sheniqua were all hangin out for the day. Umm, well i get back home, and go on my moms comp and everything, log onto myspace and theres a comment saying some ish about how my profile pic, a shirt that says Kiss me Im NOT Irish, is offense to him and being irish is the shit and if i dont like irish ppl to go screw myself. Honestly no one told him to look at my site in the first place. Dumbass loser, it was pretty funny though he couldnt type for shit. Goodness, i got a headache trying to decode his shit. But anyway. I guess thats about it. Ill ttyl journal byebyez.
p.s how does everyone like the new smileys and my new cursor? Current Mood: amused
|Friday, April 8th, 2005|
|D.A.R.E basketball game and skate night.
Ok well, well today was different. Not all that good, but not entirely bad. Went to see A MidSummer Nights Dream. It was a lil boring, just because me and musicals dont mix so early in the morning. But yeah, it was still interesting. Umm, got back ate lunch, actually had recess. Man i missed that, lol umm. Then just went to the gym for a lili before the D.A.R.E basketball game.LOL it was fun, the 8th graders won against the cops. Umm. i made a shot. Mainly because no one passed me the ball, but what did i expect, i was the only girl on the court, n the boys i was playin with where all ball hogs who swear up and down there the shit but inactuality there not. But anway. Umm, what else?? Went downtown with Jeff. Before we left the school though, kristen came up to me asked if i liked jeff i said no n shes like oh he really reallly really(she said really about 10 times)likes you. I was just like oh damnit!. Because i really dont see him like that. But yeah, umm. I asked him downtown and he was like i dont know maybe maybe not. So yeah.
After at the skating night. OMGOSH i was hot mess. Just lol, i dont even know. But yeah i saw someones friend and i was like oh damn, are they gay? Can you ask them for me, LOL because i didnt know them. Turned out they werent gay(didnt get to ask if they were bi)but yeah.LOL Umm. OH yeah then i went to go get something to eat with leanne and i was like leanne ask the cashier for he number. Leannes like no So i go say
me: how old are you?
me: oh ok, my friend wants your number.
her: awww how old is he? You gotta point him out
other dude: tell him he has to wait a few years
her: haha yeah
me: ok ill telll them you said later.
LMAO so i start walking to the tables and was like yo jeff she said late*wink wink*he was like wtf are yo talking about and im like hello*wink wink*lol. So a lil later im like hey leanne can you go tell her the person that wanted her number was me.LOL umm leanne said she just smiled and said she didnt roll that way. That was funny though. I would have done it myself but there was ppl around that i knew and i really didnt feel like having ppl talk about that again. So yeah i guess thats about it. Ill ttyl journal byebyez. Current Mood: accomplished